What's the feeling of being a loser?After years of calling others sore loser,I've finally knew whats the feeling of being like one.It's a feeling of composed of few element mixed together...anger,embarassment,humiliation.It hurts my pride that I been proud of.
I always said,there's is nothing I don't dare to do except hitting my own mummy.But there is another thing that I actually feared,that is to talk to girl i liked face to face in front other people.The moment I've decided to walk in front and talk,less than a second..my body refused to move another step.In the end,I just squat there and walk back to my own sit.How sohai i can be?Then, I need to pass something to that girl and even the class ended,I never actually go hand over the letter to her.She came to me and asked me for that. zzzz
There's a limit to everything,even shy-ness.In the library today,I've finally got the chance to talk to her face to face,1on1.No other interruption..and I can't look at her face when talking to her?ass..
For the very very 1st time,I found myself helpless and being a total nuisance.I keep telling her,that I've need some time and already been improving.Now that I think of it,It is not something that need a long time to get it done.rite?If there's a will,there's always a way.I've always nurture others with my own princips of life that I been following up until now.
1 of it,called Just do It!(nike's quote) but I can't put up a good performance with my own princips?What is really happening to me?I do not know.. Reli gonna slap my self for good..being a sore loser wouldn't just bring embarassment to myself but people dear to me.My family,my brothers and ms chan... Seriously gonna lock myself up in my room..reminiscing bout what I've have done.
